How much is too much?

Apparently there is no point of return. Stupid things has done and things are clearer now.
We made decisions everyday and awaits their outcome. Sometimes there are risk to take to just understand what's the outcome, curiosity is what drives the excitement. I have tried it, taste it, regret it, and then understand it.
Seen the outcome and I question myself? Is this for real? Yes, I can no longer give lies to myself anymore. The more you hide it the more u crave for it, it become parts of you.
What do I understand? The feeling that has long lost and never was I to imagine it would come back and haunt me. I scared of losing it, but then I understand what's to sacrifice and what's to be found again Distance is what kills me, slowly but then distance is what strengthen it.
They say that feeling will makes you dumb and how true is it? We will never know it until we tried it...