Sleepyhead

Its the time where I work as a night shift alone again, walking down the silent and cold alleyway near the office block. Well, I guess I am starting to get used to it now, my friends and colleague used to accompany till the night (Yes my colleague does work as late last time but it is no longer the same now). People at this hour are most likely in their dream or cuddling their loved ones now.

It really does make sense for one to think a lot when you are working alone, I still remember telling my friends: "Hey, did you know working alone in a quiet place is like the most awesome thing ever ?!". Yeah right, I used to enjoy doing it a lot last time when I was still studying during my college time. I always find quiet place so that I can put myself there and start focusing in what I am going to do, it gives me a kind of calmness and quietness I am looking. Starring at streetlight, reflections on the swimming pool, the noisy argument from the neighbor living upstairs and the puff of smoke from the neighbor living downstairs. Seems like everyone is accompanying me (haha :D)

Let's be honest, I do struggle to sleep or most would call it insomnia. I guess I just felt insecure when I sleep or maybe there is so much more going inside my brain and I just can't sleep. The favorite thing I would do, turn on my phone or tablet and go through everything, literally all the articles and YouTube videos I can find until I am so tired and fall asleep. Sometimes I just stay awake until the morning, continue my days just like normal people would. Take some caffeine shots and starts my day.

Hollow minded ? Yes. Boring ? Yes. Empty Mind ? Yes. Lonely ? Yes. But does that breaks my spirit from being myself again ? No. I can start to feel a kind of transition now in my life, so many turning point in my life telling me what I have lost what I have gained. Sometimes, you just have to give in order to gain more, to care for your love one and to tell yourself you have so much more yet to be done.

Now, if people would ask me again : "How's life working alone at night ?". I would tell them: "It is not that great after all".